|raisedbymoogles (raisedbymoogles) wrote,|
@ 2011-05-14 23:34:00
So, my grandfather's cancer has spread again. They're stopping chemo. He's got anywhere from two to nine months to live. I just hope he lasts long enough that I can see him one more time.
*head in hands*
With that said, complaining about my mother seems petty, but - I have got to move out, before we kill each other. So apparently sometimes I have a 'tone' Mom doesn't like. I say apparently because whenever she accuses me of having a Tone, nine times out of ten I have absolutely no clue what she's talking about. We were Out today, and I was getting a little tired, but Mom says something to me and I banter back and she whips out the Tone thing, and I tell her that I don't know what she's talking about.
"Can you just trust me that the tone is there?" she snaps.
"I trust you that you hear it," I say in - I stress this - a completely reasonable tone of voice.
And we haven't spoken since.
To be honest? I'm getting really sick of this. I'm sick of her punishing me emotionally if I don't wag my tail on command for her. I admit that sometimes I'm a little cranky, but other times I'm just tired, or preoccupied, or reading, or just plain don't feel like bouncing up and slapping on the Happy Moogle face right at that very moment, thank you very much. And even if I am cranky - dammit, I'm allowed. People get cranky sometimes! It doesn't mean anything's wrong, it just means I'm human!
Frankly, doing the Tone thing with me is the quickest way to make me pretty damn irritated if I wasn't before.