|raisedbymoogles (raisedbymoogles) wrote,|
@ 2008-01-29 20:31:00
Pepper's continued adventures in religion.
So I picked up Wicca for Beginners by Thea Sabin a while back and I finally got around to reading it. I never expected to be converted to full-fledged magick-with-a-k Wiccanishness, but I do dabble in a few things, so I thought I ought to know about the wider range of beliefs in which they exist. I'd gotten a couple books from the library that impressed me (check out The Body Sacred by Dianne Sylvan, it's basically self-image through a Wicca-ish lens and it's absolutely amazing), but they were written for people who were already In The Fandom, so to speak. I figured I'd get further insight if I started at the beginning. Hence this book.
It wasn't exactly the kind of book I'd curl up with of an evening with a mug of hot chocolate, but it was fairly interesting and followable until I got to this passage:
Once you're comfy [sitting down], rub your hands together until you feel warmth between them. Then hold your hands together in front of you as if you were a child saying a bedtime prayer, and slowly move them apart a few inches. As you move them apart, see if you can feel the energy that you just raised zip between your palms ... or... fingers... wait... um, no, that's... um, that's friction...
[trailing off into incoherence mine]
Possibly I'm cynical. But I know when I'm lying to myself when it comes to the spiritual stuff, I'd been doing it for years, and this shit right here feels no different to me than believing that God created the Earth in six days and that homosexuals are going to hell. It's not a matter of whether it's true - you make yourself believe it because if you don't, you aren't really One Of Us.
...I never got much further on that book. It just... hit a nerve that jangled wrong.
So that's why I'll never be anything but a solitary practitioner in whatever faith I end up settling in. I'm going in with my eyes wide open, and I will not be told what my spiritual experiences should be.