I'm not sure I can explain my feelings when I found out Adele was a Fat Woman.
(Capitalizing it to show respect.)
I first heard Adele's "Rolling in the Deep" on the radio, and her voice absolutely blew my mind. Powerful, soaring, rich, a little old-school. Her words were a far cry from the insipid, servile 'love' songs that seem to be the domain of female pop singers these days: strong, promising retribution, not even a bit sexual. The anger and the pain and the stubborn refusal to give into it were things I could relate to. I turned the radio up every time the song came on.
My mental picture of the woman behind the voice, though, was still conventional - yet another rail-thin* singer, pretty and sexy and utterly alien to me. Not only am I not thin, I have never
been thin, even as a child. I've always been this awkward, tongue-tied, chubby girl, and I feel like thin, attractive women live in some sort of parallel dimension where people actually want them around. I don't know what it's like to seek attention, and actually get
it, based on my looks. I don't know what it's like to speak and to have my voice heard. Somewhere along the line I must have learned that girls who look like me aren't worth listening to.**
Then I found the video for "Rolling in the Deep," and my mind got blown again. That powerful, amazing voice, the one that commands you to listen, is coming from a woman who looks like me.
Adele is, by industry standards at least, fat. She is also fucking gorgeous,
in a way that she wouldn't be if she were rail-thin. She holds her head up high and she opens her mouth and she owns the damn world
, and god, I want to be her when I grow up.
Adele is no longer a knockout voice on the radio. She is an inspiration.Rolling In The Deep (Live)*No disrespect to skinny girls, I promise. It's just that - sweet fancy Primus, mainstream media, there are other body types.
**My issues regarding my shyness are more complicated than this, but my weight is part of it.